It’s no secret that I have been struggling with my faith for the past couple of years.
Well, not faith so much as church. And maybe God. But mostly just church. Since leaving our church after 18 years, we are a family without a church home. The lack of roots is quite literally sucking the faith right out of me. I have become very cynical where the church is concerned. I know that this should not be.
I love the Lord. I love His family. I loved following Him. At this point though, I am just lucky if all four of my family members attend the same church together on a Sunday. Or if we make it at all.
I want to get back into reading the Bible regularly.
Daily. In the past I’ve done the Bible in 90 Days reading plan with a group of other believers and have had an amazing time doing it. I have completed #B90Days 3 times. It is one of the most enriching experiences EVER for me when it comes to God’s Word. The vast overview of God’s story– God’s plan for mankind– is mind boggling when taken in as a whole. Reading the entirety of the Bible allows you to do just that.
The first time I did it, I used my trusty Spirit Filled Life NKJV Bible. At the time, all I knew is that I wanted to do it, and since that was the Bible I was using at the time, that’s what I read through.
And it was amazing.
I felt like God was wanting me to show me who He was as I was reading, and I purposed to write down every Name of God that I came across as I read. I wrote them inside the front cover of my Bible. It still gives me chills to open it and read through them. SO MANY. So much depth of meaning there, as his names show His character.
The last two times, I used the NIV Bible in 90 Days Bible. It is a hardcover, large font, single column Bible with lots of white space and no distractions. I really appreciated the thought that Ted Cooper put into it, knowing that a good reading copy is what is most needed for this venture.
These two Bibles, along with my YouVersion Bible app, are the ones that I still use. Except that I’ve found myself leaning more on my app and less on my hard copy Bibles. I’ve also noticed that I retain less when I read a digital copy. Last year I started and didn’t finish. I got about 70% through mainly reading using the app, and life bogged me down.
Being an avid note taker, I typically journal and take notes in my Bibles.
(But NOT in my Bible in 90 Days Bible, because… well, distractions… ya know…) I really want a Bible that is easy to read, single column, and allows me to brain dump as I read. Especially during church, I prefer to take notes IN my Bible rather than on papers that will get lost right away. Note taking is how I listen; as I listen I take notes. It’s a circle.
I finally decided to take the plunge and buy a journaling Bible.
My faith life is failing. My Bible reading time has tanked. I need something to give me a boost in the right direction, so I bought this Journal Edition NIV Bible:
Do I think this will fix my faith? Of course not. I am still working through hurts and fighting cynicism when it comes to church. This does give me a blank slate from which to begin again. And we all know how much God is into new beginnings. And maybe I’ll do the Bible in 90 Days reading plan again this year.
Do you use a journaling Bible? Which one is your favorite?